I’m somewhere between here and there. Limbo refers to the state of being while awaiting an action of getting somewhere else. The aftermath of bankruptcy, dismissal and looking for a new career is a tough slog. It’s like a long hangover. It feels like I’m lost/forgotten and can’t shake of this emotion.
Having lost my MOJO and trying to redefine myself is one of the hardest endeavours I have enfaced. Reality, I’m not there where I want to be. I’m lost as I’m realizing I wouldn’t know if I was ‘there’. I’m neither happy or sad, thus I’m joyreus.
“The book which the reader now holds in his hands, from one end to the other, as a whole and in its details, whatever gaps, exceptions, or weaknesses it may contain, treats of the advance from evil to good, from injustice to justice, from falsity to truth, from darkness to daylight, from blind appetite to conscience, from decay to life, from bestiality to duty, from Hell to Heaven, from limbo to God. Matter itself is the starting-point, and the point of arrival is the soul.” Victor Hugo quote.
I hope this explains my writer’s blog and my absence. I’ve lost the ability to produce new work (posts). Writer's Block is more than just a mentality. Under stress, a human brain will "shift control from the cerebral cortex to the limbic system". The limbic system is associated with the instinctual processes, such as "fight or flight" response. Because I’m primarily thinking in instinctual (learned) behaviours, creative processes are hindered.